Deep within the Torchwood Hub, Ianto lay in the bed that was hidden beneath Jack's office.  He lay there sleepless as his mind lay blank from everything.  It had been days since he fist went down there, days since he had seen anyone else, days since he had eaten.
Ianto's shallow form was huddled up in a corner, his eyes red and swollen and his head throbbed from his endless crying.
He was huddled up in a ball, his arms tightly wrapped around him trying to keep the gaping hole in his chest from consuming him any more than it had already.  He felt . . . numb and hollow.  He tried to wiggle his toes but he couldn't feel them.  He knew they were there but his brain was just too numb from the pain to feel anything.
The pain that consumed him.  The pain he hoped he would never have to bare again, not after last time.  He pulled himself in tighter, pulling his hand in closer and the item that was clutched in it.  He held a light blue garment close to his face, inhaling the exquisite sent he had come to know and love so much.
All the memories that sent held.  All the blissful moments he had spent with Jack; either chasing aliens or in his arms.
As much as he hated to, he had to cringe away from the memories.  They hurt too much.  Not shallow pains of everyday living.  Deep excruciating pains that ran right to his core; like dying slowly from the inside out.  And the hole stung at the edges when ever he thought of Jack.  The beautiful man he'd thought he'd spend eternity with.
As Ianto lay there, trying to forget and remember at the same time, his numb ears picked up a faint sound that seemed to get stronger and louder as he concentrated and listened to it.

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won
So I took what's mine by eternal right
Took your soul out into the night
It may be over but it won't stop there
I am here for you if you'd only care
You touched my heart you touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals
And love is blind and that I knew when
My heart was blinded by you
I've kissed your lips and held your head
Shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you well, I know your smell
I've been addicted to you

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me

I am a dreamer but when I wake
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take
And as you move on, remember me
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile
I've watched you sleeping for a while
I'd be the father of your child
I'd spend a lifetime with you
I know your fears and you know mine
We've had our doubts but now we're fine
And I love you, I swear that's true
I cannot live without you

Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me

And I still hold your hand in mine
In mine when I'm asleep
And I will bear my soul in time
When I'm kneeling at your feet
Goodbye my lover
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one
You have been the one for me
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow

When the end of the song came. A fresh wave of sorrow and grief gripped Ianto and even the numbness couldn't stop the pain he felt.
'Why Jack?!'  He screamed into the silent night.  'Why did you leave?!'
Tears streamed down his already tear stained face, inhaling Jack's unique sent the whole time.  
'I miss you!'  He whispered, to exhausted to shout or scream.  'I miss you so much.  What went wrong?  Why did you leave, Jack Harkness?'
Ianto gripped the shirt tighter, too afraid to let go.  Too afraid to let go of his best friend, his lover.
'Why would you leave, Jack?'  He sobbed again, his tears still flowing like a waterfall down his cheeks.  'I can't live without you.'
The pain and exhaustion was just too much for him in his fragile state and he began to fall asleep.  Another restless, haunted sleep, where everything hurt twice as much as it should.
Just before sleep totally took him over, he whispered one last thing.  It was almost inaudible but he still said it.
'I love you, Jack!  Why did you leave me?'